lame

lame about sums up this whole guy situation. i dont understand, i hate stupid mind games, and games all together. im a very straight up person, and i wish people would just be the same as well. i mean its not like he's the only guy ive met, but so far hes the only one that has even called back. well there is one other guy, but im pretty sure hes gay and just doesnt know it yet. great! not really my type any way. 

gah, of course the one i like has to be the one that plays the games. i hate it. i dont understand it at all. i thought things were going well, and then he starts to ignore me... so being the straight up gal that i am, i call him out on it and ask, and of course he says no no no i just get caught up blah blah blah. ok i can take that, but then the next day you do the same thing..super lame. 

gah! well his loss, he is the one missing out on what he could have been getting if he had kept up with how he was in the first week. 

well now that ive bitched out on paper about guys lets get to work. alright im really sick of work. its so repetitive, and the hours are just not going well for me. i never get a weekend off, which doesnt help this whole trying to meet a guy thing. i mean normal jobs yeh if you work the weekends you get off by sometime between 6-10, i dont get off til after 12, by then nothings open, and who wants to start doing anything at that hour. im going to look around and see who's hiring. i have a feeling im going to feel bad about leaving the tours, like im screwing them over but, i cant take how repetitive it is, i donno how my manager does it. i would have killed myself or quit by now. 

all right im done, f-k i have a french exam tomorrow. guess i'll study for a while then get ready to go. were going to see wall-e today! at least my whole weekend wont be a bust. 

sincerely yours,

mur