i'll be your intellectual goofy artist if you'll be my philosophical anxiety musician. 

you

i just wanna be there right now. with you. for more then selfish reasons, more then to finally feel something for someone else again. im hoping this works out. you probably dont even read this. so hopefully you dont. i like you, and i hope you feel the same. its only been a short time, but i hope it continues. im still edgy on so many things, still questioning so many things. some i hope are right and others are wrong. and i hope this works itself into something that will create growth in us both. 

sincerely yours,

mur

new things

new things seem to be going well for me. the whole thing with j guy seem to be going good, i do have a few doubts about a few things but maybe he'll prove me wrong in the end. i hope he does cuz i like the guy, so i hope i dont get screwed over. 

the new job isnt to bad im hosting for only 6 and hour so hopefully i get moved up to serving at least 2-3 times a week. i might go with audra to the pink house sometime and see if they are still hiring because i know i would make mucho dinero there. 

me and audra went to the animal shelter yesterday and found the CUTEST cat ever. her name is diamond right now but if all goes as planned we will be getting her on monday and she will be come tuesday! so excited. 

this is my last week of french class so hopefully i can pull off a B in the class and all will be well. im loving my baroque class im hoping i did well on that test. i know i aced the essay its just the dates on the ID section im worried about i know i got all the artists and titles right. 

well i do have french homework to do, and i would like to finish cleaning up my room. oo and i have decided to start keeping a food journal because i was loosing weight pretty steady from riding my bike, but ive hit a straight spot so now a diet is in need. 

i was planning on going to port charlotte this coming weekend but with the new job im not sure if that is going to happen. so we'll see how it goes. a trip back home in august might work out better. or maybe the weekend after this one i might be able to get off if i can talk to my manager and she doesnt care. oo and the drama at the new job as already started. horray! so should be interesting, but hey at least i get to interact with more people now. 

alright all for now

sincerely yours,

mur

super bored

so i quit my job at the ghost tours. im trying to get a job a restaurant in town. ive got a good feeling about a few of them so i hope it works out. there was some crazy stuff going down at the house with sketchy people and drugs i think. so i dont want to be around there when things go down with things dealing with those kinds of things. 

so besides a job hunt, and school theres not much to do since everyone left. nasser leaves tomorrow so its going to be me and steven in the house for a while. other good thing about a new job, would be to hopefully meet more people here in town since everyone is gone.

so im still technically working at the house, but they only have me on the schedule for saturday and sunday. im hoping i get friday off because j is having a get together at his place. so if i go out there coming into town to work a tour wouldnt really work out well since he is out in the boro. 

things seem to be going well with j. i hope it continues i dont really feel like getting walked over again. the b man was good for getting back into the swing of things, but the way it ended i guess was not that great for me. i was left confused.

so good thing for today. i did get my money back from scad so now im not broke and not to worried about the job thing right away. i have enough o pay for everything. i also was due for a new phone! so i got a new one today i like it a lot. 

so my dads birthday is this weekend as well. i feel bad for not being able to go home but im going to try and go at the end of the month, if the new job works wit that. so thats the other reason i need to get a job asap so i can ask about that.  

so thats about it for now. well that killed a bit of time. i have a bit of a headache so probably going to do the aspirin then study for french for a bit.

sincerely yours, 

mur 

been a few days

so the past few days have been pretty good. hit it off really well with new boy j. ive decided to pull a carrie bradshaw and stop using names, for the safety of others i guess. and then i can keep it some what ambiguous. took another french test today. wasn't to bad hope i did well. 

ive thinking about trying to find a new job. im just really bored with the one i have now, and the scheduling is super crappy. i never get a day off on the weekends, which totally blows. i'll get so burned out by the end of the summer if this keeps up. so i grabbed a few applications for a few place so we'll see what happens. making more money would be nice too. i would just ask for a raise, but im not in the best of terms with the boss at the moment. scheduling issues over the busy weekend. wasn't good. 

well back to the the j fella. things started kinda slow wasnt sure he was interested, but im pretty sure after saturday night its pretty good to say theres a mutual attraction. so hopefully things continue, and he just doesnt stop calling like the B man. 

soo bout it for now. have things to do, and then an nap of epic proportions is calling my name. 

sincerely yours,

mur

tomorrow

is going to be a good day i hope. meeting someone new is always exciting. me and sarah are gonna to to metro!!! i have classes tomorrow, im so glad its thursday. gah i cant wait for this weekend. friday will be fun as well, as long as work doesnt decide to be super lame and call me in last min. 

i got a 92 on my french test! always good, and all the research for my art history paper is going well. im actually not being a procrastinator for once, nice change. i should be doing some french homework now, just in case i have to work the 10:30 tour. 

so i guess i'll do that. i'll give a longer update sometime this weekend.

all for now folks

sincerely yours, 

mur