update

ive fallen into a bad rut. were i think updating this thing as more of a hassle then a release  i really need to change that mentality. im at an odd place in life, i think ive at least figured out what my education will be good for, however im always doubting my intelligence to make it that far. i dont work nearly hard enough then i should. i tend to put a social life ahead of studies, which an an academic major i really need to change. i hope i get a spirt of motivation sometime soon. i have a big choice coming up as well. as it turns out i need to learn german for most masters and phd programs in art history, and scad will finally be offering german starting next year, however i am currently enrolled in french. if i decide to not finish out french past the third quarter, and then take german i would probably have to drop my minor and all kinds of mayhem will ensue. im very far behind in my majors classes, and i can feel it. 

on top of all that i am very stressed about money. there is so much i want to be doing right now but unfortunately work has been super slow so half the time im sent home after an hour. i had to ask my parents for money to cover my rent this month, which sucks i loved the feeling of being financially independent for the most part. it was my money so i could do with it what i wanted. now after all my bills are pained i'll have just over 40 dollars to my name. i know my next paycheck will be even lower so i have no idea how im going to come up with enough to cover next months bills. 

ive started taking pictures for some of the master's program painting students, maybe they'll get me some money going. i have an interview hopefully soon at desoto row for a volunteer position, i also have an interview with the student newspaper for a position there, which will pay starting next quarter. i hope i get it. 

yet another point of change, while megan is back i dont believe she's going to move in with me. so i have no idea who im going to live with when the lease is up. i like the idea of living by myself, but i really dont believe i can afford it, i guess i'll see what happens come april. all for now, off to work to hopefully make some money tonight. 

sincerely yours,

mur

mix up

ive been so mixed about so many things in my life its crazy. mostly about what i want as far as companionship. i have this yearning to have someone to care for, but i dont it to be complicated, or to serious. it sounds selfish i know but if someone doesnt fit what i want, i just dont want it at all. it's weird i just want something, but i dont know what it is at all...

sincerely yours,

mur

im back

i made it back from canada. i really had fun seeing all my family up there and playing in the snow wasn't half bad either. however now that i have spent two weeks with my parents and brother i remember why i love my family in savannah so much. see you soon guys i missed you. 

sincerely yours,

mur