work

i like my job a lot. im sure i'll be glad when this weekend is over however, tonight was slammed. we had like 150 people tonight. soooo much booze was consumed. made pretty good tip money. still so many things for me to learn though. my feet are killing me, i need to get some shoe inserts or something. 

i like it though. well all for now. i work again tomorrow, and im super tired. so sleep here i come. 

sincerely yours,

mur

so excited!

i just got an opportunity im so thankful for. EF tours just called me and want me to be a group leader. i hope this works out. o dear traveling for free just what i want to do. :)

sincerely yours,

mur

my head and chest hurt

and its my own fault for waiting for so long to study. now im super tired and stressed. ive looked over all the power points and cheat sheets, going to review again in the morning. and i have this overwhelming urg to cry i donno why. just do. things arnt that horrible at all in my life what so ever. there are just a few things i would like to change. so im going to watch greys anatomy, cuz it can always make me cry when i need to haha. 

sincerely yours,

mur

just going to come out and say it

im pretty sure not to many people read this. so hey its my blog to get my feelings out. i want some sex. thats that. i said it. 

i just

want to be held. 

sincerely yours,

mur

weekend in pc

this weekend went well. i had so much fun on friday and saturday nights. ahh the girls always can make me smile.

however there was way to much drunk dialing going on..sorry to those who know what im talking about.

i have however been slightly disapointed in a few things.

life is such a hypocrasy. 

because im an independent 19 year old..who happens to have a relationship thats not all boyfriend girlfriend lovey dovy im a "slut"

however i feel like a reason its not the boyfriend girlfriend stance..is because im not however slutty enough..perhaps. i donno, maybe if i post pictures of myself in lingerie it apparently gets me some respect from some parties. who knows. i hope that wouldnt get me respect. 

i know these have been getting vague and short, but its just thoughts down in here. so all for now.

sincerely yours,

mur 

after seeing olympic stuff

i always feel like a super lame athlete and wish i had continued swimming.

it happens.

i might wake up early to do research for my paper, then go swim. maybe

hey if dora torres can go to the olympics at 40 i can get back in shape for sure. 

gotta see if the tattoo is finished peeling, hopefully it is.

i wish

i with everything was simple, and staight foward. is that so much to ask. i never understand at all and maybe im over reaching, which is possible. i just get way to impatient. boys and my brain why do you play this game. 

on a lighter note, my new job is good.