looking up

things are looking way up. i feel some change gonna come, hopefully. more details to come later. for now im off to fight battles with this cold, and hopefully shoot two rolls of film tonight. 

sincerely yours,

mur

voted

so i sent in my absentee ballot a few days  ago. it feels pretty amazing to vote i do have to say. i know some people may say its only one little vote, but hey if my one little vote adds up with lots of other peoples one little vote its going to count. i loved the feeling of filling in those silly little bubbles, and i hope to shiva there is no hanging chad junk this year. florida better be on that shiza. i decided to keep my registration in florida because it has more of a chance of voting democratic then georgia does. florida is also worth more in the electoral college so hopefully my vote makes it all the way back to charlotte county this week and it will be the start of a change. 

sincerely yours,

mur

anyone

up for no emotional good sex. its been a long time. lame.

im blunt what can i say. 

sincerely yours, 

mur

have i gone crazy

me, yes me, i am going sky diving. crazy huh? i have this crazy fear of heights. im going to cry on the plane. i can see it now. 

its all megan's fault. i'll just blame her to make me feel better. 

sincerely yours,

mur

school

its the first week of school and so far i really like all my classes. i have tons of work to do and friends to catch up with. so keeping this short. 

sincerely yours,

mur

i feel shallow

is it bad that i have more of an intellectual relationship with his best friend? its so weird. i find him more attractive physically however im pretty sure the other j knows more about me then he does. i do find my self to be mentally attracted to other j but i feel super shallow because im not physically attracted to him. i feel im to young to be so concerned about these kind of things and i should just have fun. but i want to be happy. its so weird. awkward situation over all. hopefully somewhere out there, there is a man who is both and can fill all my expectations. 

sincerely yours,

mur

i hope

im not going to be the only one who likes going up stairs to hang out with the neighbors. they're actually pretty nice guys, and not jerky drunks either. yey they drink but hey its college and i dont mind doing it in moderation. convenience as well, hey if i do drink upstairs its not like i have to drive home. plus a few of them are not bad looking either which makes life and living here so much more interesting haha. 

well thats all for now, dont worry guys im not going to become a drunk who flunks out of school. 

sincerely yours,

mur

i am awake

im am awake for what seems like no reason. i just woke up tried to go back to sleep and it just wont occur. there is so much going on soon. its all so exciting. cary gets here on monday and possibly sarah as well because of hurricane ike. i have my district meeting today im pretty excited about that as well i missed all the folk at the paper. i cant wait for all the student media kids to get back, scad radio guys are so flipping funny. gah i just want the fall to start already, just so i can have everyone back. 

so ive been itching to change something. im not sure what. i thought maybe a hair cut but its really hard to do much to my hair without it being a drastic change. its a bit to early for my next tattoo, i like to think about them for a super long time before i get them to make sure im going to like them in the long run. its just such an expensive habit. so im left with a new piercing. i dont want my lip done, i just dont think it would look right on my face. so i was thinking of a few one on my ear, just gotta find a place first. 

im going shopping with audra today. so that will be fun, hopefully get some new clothes for school :D. going swimming later with steven. i love being in the pool again it makes me feel so much better, and i love the solidarity of it. being able to just think about anything is what i loved about swimming so much, that and if your ever in a bad mood taking it out in the pool is amazing. 

well i guess thats it for now. im going to try and go back to sleep. 

sincerely yours,

mur

weird feelings

so ive always normally been the i want love kinda girl. however lately ive been feeling so different about so many things. i want to try so many new things in my life, and probably not stay in one place for to long once i graduate, and travel a bunch while im in school too. so i guess what i have now with the current interest works out well. its just such an odd feeling, almost like having no feelings for the person, but they are there. i donno its so weird to me. i almost feel like a shallow guy who wants the perks of a relationship without the commitment. so strange i dont know what to think about it anymore. 

sincerely yours,

mur