R still hasn't called, im assuming he doesn't want to talk to me anymore, which is also pretty lame. apparently im on the path to self destruction. sometimes i wish life were a bit easier, i understand that yes life is going to be hard and all but really you would think i would get some kind of a break here. its been nothing but bad for the past two weeks.
im just already done with everything, this whole summer has kinda blown for the most part, just been a mountain of stress all the time.
i cant wait for the fall, i want it to bring all things new and old back. i miss all my friends that i havent seen all summer.
i also didnt get a lot accomplished that i wanted to this summer, mostly because of all these distractions. i really need to find a way to focus but i havent found that place yet.
most of the time i just feel like laying in bed all day, or going for a bike ride, and thats really it.
im also really tired of being broke, i hope P gets a job soon, this is getting so crazy. everytime i have money there is yet another bill to pay. i hate it.
ive also felt like ive let friendships slip away.
i feel very alone most of the time. im pretty sure they are all my fault. i also feel as if most of my problems are superficial and dont matter, but if the way i feel is from my feelings then jesus i need to deal with something, or at least have someone to listen to them and tell me how to feel better.
all for now i guess.
sincerely yours,
mur
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